My Porn Addiction Experience

my friends in 3rd grade kept on talking jokingly about se, so i went to search for it cuz i was curious

and it all started from there

i masturbated everywhere i could

at home, at my hometown, even outside

when it was the pandemic, everytime there was no one, i watched porn, and when i saw my parents coming, i quickly switched back to my zoom class

there is this story i will never forget

my brothers discord server has a joking vietnamese sex word in it, and i ddint know, i thought it was just a funny term like bruh. so when he lost a game i said that word. his face instantly became a brick and he said that he knew i was watching porn (cuzi didnt use incognito mode) so he took me to my room, locked the door, and yelled at me for how dangerous and bad it was, and he said he would tell my parents.

then i was on my knees, begging to not tell them, and he didnt

that secret has been kept just between us forever, i havent told my parents now

and as the school year came by, i got distracted, so i wasnt addicted for 4th and 5th grade, and for 6th grade too

but by the end of 6th grade, i have a laptop, and a phone, so the habit just came back

i started doing it at night, in the bathroom, not as severe as 3rd grade. its just once every 3 days

but i knew if i had kept it on going, i would have been a true gooner

so i started on fixing myself

The restrictions

i did digital detoxes on my phone in the past so i have experience, and this time i wanna go harder

I switched my new smartphone to an older smartphone

i did this because older smartphones, have older oses, and thtats why i cant install youtube, also i deleted the browser and the playstore, making it impossible to fuck around on the phone

i only install neccessary apps like localsend (send files to your laptop in a local network), alarmy (relly gud alarm app), and podcast addict

the camera on here is pretty decent and i LOVE IT

u can also turn your phone into sth like this (if its rootable, if not, choose a blocking app like digital detox (really extreme), or blockerx which has an accountability partner option)

i got a brick phone

this is crucial because it allows me to disconnect and be more aware of the things around when i onlly bring this phone to pick up a call from my parents in case

porn blocking

i tried app blocking and stuff it didnt work, and i always watched porn at my house, so why not configure my own router!

i added a dns filter for pornography so that my family members cant even watch, so its a win-win !

my laptop

this is the biggest part, because with my laptop i can do anything, but with the filter it cant do shit

btw if yall are true gooners, yall can still watch on twitter or instagram,

just block those bitches

The urge

even with those restrictions, you can still have the urge

now heres the harsh truth:

once you made a habit, it wont disappear

what i mean is if you interact with something that is also an initiative for your urge

so now, the most important thing is your environment

(those infos are from atomic habits btw, really gud book for building and breaking habits)

so design your environment to your liking so that it wont be so satisfying for masturbation

for example: design your rooms filled with books or game controllers, a bunch of distractions to distract you from porn watching, or a door that cant be unlocked

then from then on, modify the environment through time

what im doing here is finding activities to distract myself and do instead of watching porn

only talk about your addiction to people you trust, or never talk to anyone

also, make the habit of masturbation really unsatisfying

for example, remove your matress and replace it with a bamboo sleeping sheet, which makes it way more difficult to

book recommends : atomic habits and cant hurt me

relly gud books guys red lplesss, now bye bye